Losing Slowly

I am losing slowly, in more ways than one.  The really good news is I've managed to surpass Goal Weight #1 and I'm 4 lbs shy of meeting Goal Weight #2.

Proof.

So that's great at least, right? I'm down 3 lbs. The restricting thing seems to be working as it should, so I will continue that. Which brings me to...

[Day Five]- Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?

Honestly, the reason I'm working on losing this weight is so that I can feel more attractive, and better about myself like I used to. My lowest I've ever weighed is 125. Everyone noticed me. But now, I don't even think anyone would take a second glance. Is that selfish of me to want that? 

[Day Six]- Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.

Short answer, yes. I used to binge. Often. I think it was basically a manifestation of my anxiety. Now that I am seeing results, I'm trying really hard not to fall back on binging. I would spend so much money going out to eat, going to Starbucks and getting coffees, wasn't helping my waistline at all. Food was comfort. I am finding new ways to comfort myself now, and it's only going to help me in the long run.

[Day Seven]- Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care? 

They have no idea what I'm doing. I don't want them to. No one really knows, except 2 people. I want people to notice what I've done and come up to me and be like "Oh wow, you've lost weight!" I'm looking for that shock factor. Plus, that way, if I fail, no one will know it because I've not told anyone about this diet and restriction thing.

That's all for now. I'm tired. Must sleep.